Friday, October 31, 2008

Bold

how does circumstance..... seems to fucked up every chance at living the truth in our heart... it seems the best laid plans fall just outside our hands...... and leave us broken down and far apart... but if faith play a role we know that someday what we want for ourselves in our lives, our hopes, our expectations, our plans will at least come true ... not all of it but some ... so just do it ... there are many things we afraid and dont understand... and we just have to do the best we can with the knowledge we have ...... and maybe this time fates will be kind to us......

i never knew the difference between bullshit or sincere, as long it sounded good while coming out

Friday, October 24, 2008

Friday

sebab ape aku suka ari jumaat....
  • boleh gi office lewat gile .... //lewat disini adelah dlm pukui 1030 ke atas
  • boleh chill out kat office tanpa mebuat ape2
  • boleh baca manga kat net sebab die dah update.....
  • boleh balik awal tak pun lewat ..... tak kisah pasai dah tahu esok tak kerja
  • bile balik rumah .... dah bersih .... ade orng tolong bersihkan.... thank you
  • ari jumaat kasi hope yg weekend adelah weekend best gile .... // selalu nye tak a...
  • start weekend... // 2 ari untuk tido lame gile .... dan takde orng call tanye pergi kerja tak ari ni
  • etc etc....

weekends dont count unless you spend them doing something completely pointless

happy weekends

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Aqua vitae

Fuck ... bodo gile last post aku tu .. tah ape2 aku tulis .... tapi aku malas la pulak nak delete .... bangang gile ... sebab nanti aku ingat how fucked up i was that night ..... cun2....

last post ....
gile attention whore abis post aku tu ...
fuck duh .....

To aqua vitae: the cause of --- and solution to --- all of life's problems.

Decision

today i mafde my descison that will affect my future....... it a first to me since idont make thast desicion often.... dont get me wrong ilikr it .... rephrase i love it ..... because ive been thinkong about this for a long time.... it suppose to be great but..... i dont know .... i had this feeling about my decision ... it dont seem rihgt.... it suppose to make me happy ...but it does the opposite.... i dont know why..... but i think it willl be a mistake.... it will cause aporblem..... maybe im scared...or maybe it about a comittment..... i do suck at commitment....fuck this shit....5this thing hount me ...for the past weeks... cibai ...crap sduh .....im not taht good with this kind of problem ... i udont face it ..... i run from a problem.... and those little tiny thing that used dont matter to me ...... now becomke a huge problem..... im really suck at this...hope the desicion i made on the afternoon either it become a right one ......or it will become some mistake taht in the future i will have a laugh with someone..... crap ... what im bvitching bout .. im sounding like i have avagina.... hahahaah ...... this is what u get ...when u have .....a ciuple of shot and 2 mug of a beerr........ hope i forget all this shit tomorrow .... cause people ssaid that alcohol do make thing f]goes away ......


// pardon the spelling and everthing......... i was under influence when i wrote this ..... cheeersa

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Empty

this last couple of weeks = suck // it not that suck it just outside a routine .... but since i own this blog and all blogger love to exaggerate... the word suck would be my choice of word ...

a lot of thing happen...
things that i can change...
things that i cant change...
things that i can change but im to lazy to do anything about it....

and it been like forever man....

what i need is to be empty...
i need some distraction...
no thinking shit...
escaping one last time...

hoping tommorow would be a good day to be empty......

// who like to be my designated driver?

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Stupid

i cant believe i share a planet with a being as stupid as you

bodoh
bangang
kecik2 tak nak mampus dah besar menyusah kan orng
camne la aku bleh kenal orng camni
bodoh gile

ade ke patut?
bagi kerja last minute.... pastu kerja tu pulak kena amik mase at least 3 jam nak siap kan.... die nak dlm mase sejam ..... jenuh aku kena buat ...... bile dah siap nak kena hantar pergi print.... die nak siap ari nie jugak ... kedai printing tu ade kerja lain nak buat .... mane leh siap kan ari nie ... diorang cakap besok ... dah la nak print skit.... print la banyak2 ... lepas nie tak yah print lagi .... bile dah hantar semua pergi printing .... pukul 10 mlm ... die msg balik .... cancel print tu ... kita redesign... kepala hotak .... mak ko pelacur.... babi .... cibai gile.... kimak.... nak je aku sepak mamat nie....

In my opinion, we don't devote nearly enough scientific research to finding a cure for stupidity

asshole

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Waitin

lame duh aku tunggu ....
ade dekat 5 jam ....
aku kena cancel plan ...
ade orng cancel plan ...
ade orng ajak lepak pehtu tak jadi lepak ...
ade orng pi tengok apprentice....
ade orng ajak pi minum tapi aku cancel ...... damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn


akhirnya .....

berbaloi jugak 5 jam aku tunggu .....

micronesia wait for me ......

Monday, October 13, 2008

Bragging Right

ade org tu pergi 4 kali ....

ade orng tu pergi 2 kali ....



tapi mamat tu pergi skali ja ...



in ur face

aahahahahaha



//damn depa tak kasi gamba lagi .... camne nak post nie

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

29 years

29 tahun dulu
-Aku baru lahir duh …. Time nie confirm gile aku nie cute…. Ahahahha… mane ade baby buruk duh …..

28 tahun dulu
-Aku tak ingat duh … ape aku buat time nie…. Yg confirm aku makan, berak , tido , melalak

27 tahun dulu
-MTV baru start duh ….. sape lahir tahun nie jadi budak2 MTV la …. yuck

26 tahun dulu
-Time nie Jermaine defoe baru lahir … pehtu die gi main team spurs… yg crap … tapi kat Malaysia ade 2 orng yg sokong team tu …. Ari ngan shebby

25 tahun dulu
- gaban, meero attack, kesatria baja hitam adelah rancangan tv yg diminati

24 tahun dulu
- aku pindah dari duduk kuala ke pekan ....

23 tahun dulu
-Aku masuk tadika duh…. Gile bosan masuk tadika …. Opah aku cakap time ni aku mals gile pi tadika …. Sampai ke tua aku malas pergi skolah ….. heheheh

22 tahun dulu
-Darjah satu …. Gile ah …. Time nie aku la hero

21 tahun dulu
- Appetite for Destruction..... the world's most dangerous band first album kuar. .... slash the man

20 tahun dulu
- marilyn manson ngan nine inch nail baru nak start .... trent ngan manson baru cuba2 nak main gitar

19 tahun dulu
-Time nie aku start bersukan …. Bukan cam setengah orng bile dah tua baru la nak pi bersukan … pehtu ajak orng gi main skali … aku dah bosan dah bersukan … dari kecik dah main dah ….

18 tahun dulu
- idola pada waktu nie adelah wings.... joe wing lah paling macho waktu nie...

17 tahun dulu
-UPSR ….. haram tak belajar pun … nasib baik la aku nye result ok … bleh la aku pi masuk skolah asrama ….

16 tahun dulu
- Aku masuk skolah agama duh … parent aku ingat dah besar nanti bleh la nak die jadi ustaz… ptui … hampeh …. Lagi jahat ade la….

15 tahun dulu
-i learn to smoke ... gile macho isap rokok .... fuck nonsmoker who feel annoyed when we smoke near them ... damn you

14 tahun dulu
-PMR ... tiket untuk masuk mrsm .... cukup2 makan .... kurt cobain mati .... nirvana suck dick...

13 tahun dulu
-aku kat mrsm serambi mekah .... time nie jadi hamba abdi ..

12 tahun dulu
-waktu nie aku lah god kat situ .... takdak sapa yg bleh lawan aku ... curi kertas soalan ... buat bende mengarut ... tak dak sape nak marah .... 1979 kuar... gile ah ... smashing pumpkins the man... lagu untuk batch legend je ....

11 tahun dulu
-Gila ... dpt pi uk tak mau ... berlagak nak pi us ... ambik ... kimak nye soros ....

10 tahun dulu
-last2 kena pi melaka.... anjing .... zaman fucked up bermula ....

9 tahun dulu
- looney planet dah mcm rumah sendiri .... party kat airport ....start kenal budak2 199 ... crap duh batch nie .... ade bawak basikal, bawak que snooker merata2, meja panjang kat rsu ....

8 tahun dulu
-team budak kaya dah masuk.... mcm2 perangai .... mamat putra... budak sarawak ...tupac ....sani sudin... minah botak ... minah chubby.... crap gak

7 tahun dulu
-batch tahun nie tak geng sangat la.... asyik nak bergaduh je kerja ... get a life la wei ....

6 tahun dulu
-one of the fantasy been fulfill ... tapi still crap .... still party je memanjang.... tumbuk lecturer.... horror gile

5 tahun dulu
-aman!!! ... mcm2 berlaku kat sini... the side that i never known exist kuar kat sini... fuck gile....

4 tahun dulu
-last year yg best kat melaka ... lepas nie tak best dah ...

3 tahun dulu
-mostly semua orng dah takde ... crap .... dah lame sangat nie.... same ngan van wilder dah ... kena cari jln nak kuar .... tak kan kena belajar? crap duhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2 tahun dulu
-start on a big project ... been thrown a lot of promises .... in the end ape pun tak dak .... crap ...

1 tahun dulu
-finally complete study .... graduated .... got a job ... everbody said " welcome to the real world"... suck big time... had to deal with responsibility, commitment and discipline which is suck.... never good with those ... met new people... kinda cool ... still looking dare to be great situation...still fucked up ... still crap...

Now
-celebrate my birthday with 2 strangers while they discusing my future.... omgwtfbbq .... 29 years had passed ... nothing change... same old same old... life's a lot more fun when you're not responsible for your actions... // all this sound so fucking gay ...... panjang gile aku tulis ... tak larat nak edit ... fuck gile ....

don't take life too seriously, u'll never get out alive.

kthxbai....

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Raya

Selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin .....


... walaupun tak posa ... chill

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Project Dream Job

ari tu aku ngan ijat // bukan name sebenar sangap .... so kita orng nak gi minum ngan sorang lagi member kitaorang shah // bukan name sebenar .... lepak2 sembang2 maklum la lame tak jumpa .... tiba2 je i got this 'the man ' nye idea ... so the 3 of us start to brain storming my idea into something practical ... sembang2 kote selame 3 jam .... we made the decision to execute the idea .... power duh ...

if thing goes well this damn fucking great project dream job berjalan .... hehehe .. aku lah orng yg paling happy skali .... pasai aku dah tak jadi corporate slave mcm orng lain .... tapi cam biase la setakat sembang je kalau tka buat tak de mende pun ... hopefully this thing will go beyond idea and become something cool .. hehhee ... to be continued .....

sometime i feel like doing something crazy that i'll regret later .... woo000ttt !!!1111111111

Monday, September 29, 2008

Weblog

"life is like a alcohol beverages, when it's good, it's really good. when it's bad, it's still pretty good."

i used to think that those people yg ade blog nie attention whore .... those yg suka exaggerate cite die .... tapi lepas dah dekat 4 tahun aku membaca blog nie... aku baru paham yg depa nie still exaggerate cite depa tapi cite depa tu yg entertain aku ... so aku pun takde masalah ngan menatang tu ... im looking for entertainment ..... this blog have it ... hehhehe .... aku selalu pikir yg orng tulis blog nie .... gile best life depa ... penuh ngan aktiviti .... banyak bende best yg depa buat .... cool gile life diorang .... tak mcm life aku ... boring je ... asyik buat bende yg same ... redundant ....

sebab ape aku buat blog?

aku dah la pemalas gile ... pi kerja pun malas ... buat assignment lagi la... lepas tu ade hati nak buat blog .... hahhahh.... bodo gile ...

aku buat menatang nie pasal aku fikir ... lagi 10 tak pun 20 tahun lagi .... time aku dah tua ... dah gemuk gile ... when i have all the sickness that old people do .... time rambut aku yg lawa nie dah abis gugur ... time aku sangap .... aku bleh bukak internet pehtu tengok blog nie .... and i can read about my life ... how i used to be ... what a jerk i am ... and how those experience contribute to my life in the future .... "Life is measured not in time but by the memory of special moments" ...
so that why i do weblog....// ini je alasan yg mcm cun la aku bleh kasi ..... yg sebenar nye aku poyo je .... nak follow the in thing right now ... hehhe

i do not regret the things i have done, but those i did not do

cheers

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Moment

"carpe diem"

"memento mori"

"eat, drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die"

im a simple man .... i dont think about the future, i dwell on the past and hoping to live in the moment.... unless the moment suck, then i live in some other moment ... heheehhehe .... capiche?

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Experience


"I hate to think that all my current experiences will someday become stories with no point"

ari tu aku chatting ngan sorang minah nie ... kawan lame aku la ... aku kenal die dah dekat 10 tahun kut .... die tanye la pasal life aku semua .... pehtu aku dengan berlagak nye cakap la yg aku dah experience semua bende ... so takde la nampak life aku suck gile ... dengan selambe nye minah tu boleh cakap kat aku ... ko tak experience semua bende lagi ... die cakap banyak bende lagi yg aku tak buat ... banyak feeling yg aku tak rase lagi ..... celaka btul la die .... tapi btul gak la die kate .... cuma aku je tak nak amik tahu ... biase la kan .... ignorant is underrated... hehe .. lame lepas tu baru aku start fikir ... i want to feel all this emotion... aku nak rase semua .... so i can understand it ... cool duh .... banyak gile yg aku tak rase lagi ....

  • Amusement // ini yg gua cari2
  • anger // selalu gak la
  • contempt // jarang la ... pasal gua ingat gua power je
  • contentment // hoping la
  • disgust // often la ... bile gua
  • embarrassment // biase ...
  • excitement // nak nak
  • fear // kadang2
  • guilt // nak rase .... tapi tak nak ... cam sial duh bende nie
  • pride in achievement // hope so la
  • relief // best nie
  • sadness/distress // a few moment
  • satisfaction // yes
  • sensory pleasure // damnn
  • shame // skali skale

banyak lagi emotion yg ade ... tapi malas dah aku nak tulis .....

Friday, September 26, 2008

Ephipany

4.am .
Cibai. … badan aku penat nak mampus …..tapi aku tak leh tido ….angjing gile ….. dah 50 ml ubat batuk aku telan still gak tak leh tido ….. babi …. Fuck gile duh … my mind cannot stop thinking about a few things … cibai gile …. Time time cam gini lak die start nak berfikir …..pantat tak ingat nye ….. sial la …
It starts with a berbuka posa… I met this 2 person who from this moment ruin everything bout my life … kimak sial …… 2 orng …. Af //bkan name sebenar ngan awek die kak yang //bukan name sebenar gak still aku tak tahu name minah nie ape but semua onrg panggil die kak yang, aku pun pangill kak yang gak lah… shit duh …. Diorang dua nie living my dream duh … not all my dream la .., tapi foundation die same je la….. sebab nie je aku tak leh tido .. terfikir pasai life diorang which is cool in my book…. Angjing …..angin sial aku .. Here I am 4 o clocks in a fucking morning, writing about my feeling in this thing try to not sounding like a fag …. Fucking gay sial …. Pantat gile …cibai .. sangap duh … babi tak leh tido …. Nie je aku bleh buat ….
Crap…. Dah berbakul aku maki diorang skrng … sorry beb gua terpaksa duh… at least lu orng dpt pahala lebih …..
  • Belajar oversea ….. check
  • Duduk oversea ….. check
  • Kerja oversea …. Check
  • Live in the moment …. Check
  • Buat ape yg diorang nak ….. check
  • Takde responsibility //tak sure sangat pasal nie …. Check


Sial la … nie semua list yg aku nak buat duh // the last three tu gile wishlist …. Diorang dah buat … yg angin nye kalau budak umur 25 24 tahun yg buat menatang nie…. Gua takde hal beb … nie sebab diorang nie sebaya aku …, tu yg aku rase suck gile …. Mostly those kids my age, semua fikir pasai susu ape nak beli kat anak die … rumah mane nak beli ….. cite pasai economy lah … the F word la // F word kat sini adelah Future bukan Fuck // fuck tu budak darjah dua dah start pikir dah …..

"god damn light"