Check Out

so check it out... right...
i try every approach to living...
i try... try it all...
i havent try everything but i try every approach...
sometime you have to try everything...
to get the approach the same...
but...whatever...
i try it all...
bought a bunch of stuff ....
and like nahh .. i dont like that...
i kinda came into that for a couple of time....
i thought i would shut myself off...
i thought maybe that cool....
maybe that what you should have to do to be genius...
is you have to be mad...
so if you could be mad before the word genius...
maybe you can make genius appear...
right?...
that doesnt work either....
and im in a good place...
im pace myself pretty well....
im near 30 ....
ive seen some cool stuff...
made a lot of stuff happen for myself...
im made a lot of stuff happen for myself...
right...
that a really cool sentence when you in your 20s....
"im made it happen for myself man"....
but all that mean...
it that im just somehow i found i way ....
to synthesize love...
or synthesize soothing...
you cant get that...
and what im saying is...
ive mess with all the approach except for one...
and it gonna sound really corny...
but that just love...that just love...
im done everything in my life that i wanna do ...
except just give and feeling love for my living...
and i dont mean like...
roman-candle-firework-hollywood-hot-pink love...
i mean like i-got-your-back love...
i dont need to hear "i love you"...
you guys love me ....
and i love you ....
we got that down....
but some other people who would tell you they love you...
it the same people who be the last who have your back....
so ....
im gonna experiment with this love thing...
giving love...
feeling love...
i know it sound really corny....
but it the last thing i got to check out...
before i check out...